Lullaby · for · the · Insomniacs

Was meant to go out for a coffee and come back and study.. but 8 hours later.. we haven't had a coffee yet. However, we did crash a car twice.. One was pretty much my fault.

Hm.. since the last post.. a lot has happened.. here's a summary:

I finished highschool.
I got 97 for ENTER.
I dyed my hair.
I went to perth.
I came back.
I dyed my hair.
I lost 12 kilos.
I had a falling out with old mates.
I gained 6 kilos.
I dyed my hair.
I started university.
I found a bunch of cool people.
I drank a lot.
I dyed my hair.
I stopped attending lectures.
I drank more.
I dyed my hair.
I went to a Philosophy lecture out of interest.
I met a beautiful girl.
I creepied that beautiful girl.
I am going out with that beautiful girl.
I'm missing that beautiful girl.

Yep. And now I wish she was in my arms so I can kiss her.

Here are the new works that I've done today:

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/27713197/

and

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/27714553/

Here are some old ones (accessible through gallery)

THE LAST PERSON WHO:
1. Slept in your bed besides you: Uhm.. at the same time?
2. Saw you cry: My cousin 13 years ago.
3. Made you cry: The tree I fell off.
4. Went to the movies with you: Stacey (Tiddles from deviantART)
5. You went to the mall with: Josh, Chow, Reeve, Clyde, Brad, Eli, Dez, Jackie, Scottie.
7. You went to dinner with: Clyde and Josh
8. You talked on the phone: Nikki.
10. Broke your heart: Alex (ex of 4.5 years)
11. Made you laugh: Some idiot on dA trying to give my critique.

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R
1. pierce your nose or tongue?: Neither, but nose.
2. be serious or be funny?: Funny
3. drink whole or skim milk?: Whole
4. die in a fire or drown?: Asphyxiation can be a beautiful thing..
5. spend time with your parents or go spend time with your enemies: Parents.

A R E Y O U
1. simple or complicated?: Complicated
2. Gay?: No.
3. Hardcore?: Not really, no.. O.o

YOU PREFER
1. flowers or candy?: Candy
2. gray or black?: Black. Grey is so dirty
3. Color or Black and white photos?: Colour
4. lust or love?: Love
5. sunrise or sunset?: Sunrise
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: Skittles
7. rap or rock?: Rock
8. staying up late or waking up early?: Staying up VERY late

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
1. do you like anyone?: *nods*
2. do they know it?: *nods again*

DO YOU PREFER
2. sun or moon?: Moon
3. Winter or Fall?: Autumn
4. left or right?: Right
5. having 10 acquaintances or having two best friends?: 2 best friends
6. sun or rain?: Sun
7. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: Vanilla
8. vodka or Jack?: Solid, Jack. Mixed, Vodka.

ABOUT YOU
What time is it?: 4:12AM
Name?: Yumetachi
Nickname(s): Yume, Mengda, Andy, Yumi, Bishit, Bishex
Where were you born?: BeiJing, China
What is your birthdate? the same day I was born

WHAT DO YOU WANT
Where do you want to live?: British Columbia, Canada.
How many kids do you want?: 2. 1 of each
What would you want to name a girl? Fleur (maybe)
What would you want to name a boy? Dante (definitely)
Do you want to get married?: If I still want to have kids, then marriage beforehand.

UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits?: Stabbing people.
2. Are you double jointed?: In the soul
3. Can you roll your tongue?: Yes
4. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Yes
5. Can you cross your eyes?: Yes
6. Do you make your bed daily? I sleep on the roof.
1. Which shoe goes on first?: The one closer
2. ever thrown one at someone?: One what? Shoe? Yes. Someone else? Yes.
3. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet/purse?: $0-$50
4. What jewelry do you wear?: One fine silver chain and a redstring luckycharm.
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti?: Yes.
2. Have you ever eaten Spam: No.
3. favorite ice cream: Vannila. It's so malleable.
4. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet?: 4
5. What's your favorite beverage? Something selfmade.
6. What's your favorite restaurant: Your mum's cooking.
7. Do you cook?: Food? No.

LET'S BE HONEST
In the last month have you...
2. Bought something: Yes.
4. Sang: Yes.
5. Been kissed: Yes.
6. Had sex: ... For reasons unexplained I shall not answer.
7. Felt stupid: lol. what?
8. Missed someone: Yes. Every waking moment. Because at night I dream about her.
9. Got drunk: Yes.
10. Gotten high: Happy, yes. Drugs, fuck no.
11. Danced crazy: Oh hell yes.
12. Gotten your hair cut: No. haha.
13. Cried: No.
14. Lied: No. There I did it again.
15. Snuck out of the house: an hour ago.

Current Mood:	Eating a paintbrush
Current Music:	Damien Rice - The Blows Daughter

A note to boys and girls: If you go jogging, make sure you start back around mid energy level, not when it's completely depleted.

I was jogging and thinking a little bit ago and I was thinking so hard before I knew it, I was something like 4 or 5 Kilometres away from my house. I noticed when I noticed my breath missing.

I know how far away I was because I note the street I turn back at...

So boys and girls, PLAN your jog so you don't take an hour combined walking and trying to jog home.

Here's a quiz that the lovely mai_angel24 took time and translated from Japanese.

This is what she wrote:

I'm a fULLMETAL ALCHEMIST fan (dont know why they are in captitals) anyway i was on this Paku Romi community http://www.livejournal.com/community/paku_san) and they had a character quiz thing which i translated......anyway have fun ^_^

1) Have you ever been worried about your hight? y->2/N->3
2) Whenever you have a sibling fight, do you always win? y->4/n->5
3) have you ever dreamt the impossible? (eg. want to be king, rich stuff like that) y->5/n->6
4) Do you cry alot? y->7/n->8
5) Do you like to play with kids? y->8/n->10
6) you you like machines? y->9/n->10
7) are you moody? y->11/n->12
8) do you worry alone? (eg. so you don't let others worry) y->12/n->13
9) were you told you are smart when you were little? y->12/n->13
10) do you worry alot? y->13/n->11
11) do you get depressed? y->14/n->15
12) you believe in justice? y->14/n->16
13) you try hard in teaching people? y->16/n->15
14) are you forgetful? y->17/n->18
15) do you have a plan for the future? y->19/n->17
16) In a state of panic, do you pray to god? y->20/n->18
17) are you the type that never gives up? y->21/n->22
18) do you have a brother/sister who is 1 yr younger/older? y->21/n->23
19) are you confident in becoming big?(eg.like in a company)y->23/n->24
20) do you have an unbelievable talent? (eg. something that doesn't suit you or your personality) y->22/n->24
21) when you smile, are you told you look scary? y->25/n->26
22) would you want to be reborn as a woman? y->26/n->25
23) do you fall for someone who is better that yourself? y->30/n->21
24) do you want to go into the army to become strong? y->29/n->21
25) do you hate milk? y->29/n->30
26) do you throw things? y->28/n->27
27) have you been told you were gonna have a normal job in the future? (eg. like work in a post office nothing fancy like work in a govement agency) y->B type/n->A type
28) someone you love is close to you? y->E type/n->F type
29) do you show emotion straight away in your face? y->D type/n->C type
30) are family and friends important to you? y->H type/n->G type

ANSWERS:
A type is ed
B type is al
C type is roy
D type is armstrong (pakusan said this is was she got)
E type is izumi
F type is winry
G type is envy
H type is scar (which everyone in the recording is, well first time they do it they are)

A) Ed type: the key point in your life is "searching" You always think about others rather than yourself. You have many responsibilities and you are well trusted but your hate for some foods is your weak point. (as in even if you are this perfect person you have some weak points)

B) Al type: the key point in your life is "brother". You are nice and polite to everyone. But because you are well mannered, you need to present yourself more. (instead of hiding in the back or behind someone, show how great you are!)

C) Roy type: the key word in your life is "flirting". You like to take care of the opposite sex. You act cold at times but sometimes show your passionate side. Showing both could make you more popular.

D) Armstrong type: the key word in your life is "muscles" (go figure).
You live a very straight and strong life. You are very moody (You show your emotions as they come). You should keep working out and staying fit.

E) Izumi type: the key word in your life is "apprentice". you are very bossy and so you are easily mistaken. You should find someone who sees your loving side and embraces it.

F) Winry type: the key word in your life is (yes you guessed it) "machines" (or mechanic). You are the type that looks after everyone. But try not to take car of others too much, for you tend to not see the bigger picture.

G) envy type: the key word in your life is (this ones hard to explain but...) "same emotion" (i think their talking about envy's feelings towards Ed & Al's father) You are the type that cannot control your feelings so you tend to hurt others. You should become more disciplined.

H) Scar type: the key word in your life is "patience". You value your group/partners more than anything but sometimes you can be to strict and always want to do it your way. So you need to learn to listen to others.

Well, what did you get?

The deal with this is, if you're afraid you're not going to know people there, then invite people you know. As many as you can. The host's name is Liam, but as it stands, a LOT of people who he doesn't know will be there. Keep inviting. Make it huge. Post this in your LJ, Xanga, home page, whatever. Just invite.

The address again is:

132 Ballantyne St, Thornbury

Date:

14th January 2005.

Time:

After 7pm

Now fucking get out there and invite.

Open your eyes, forget the fear,
Leave your burdens, carry your dreams.
For soon will arrive the new year,
And nothing's as bad as it seems.

Throw away your hurt, into the sun.
For as sure as the she will rise again,
When you next wake, next to no one,
Gone completely will be your pent up pain.

Get up and stand, here with me.
All of you who have walked in night.
Alone, again you'll never be,
Let us tride toward the light.

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/27053068/

If you read the comments on my previous entry, you'll know that I was awakened to a horrible truth.

Luckily, I found the cutest girl ever lol.. This will probably spark a whole new spate of "WHO IS IT"s but I assure you, you probbaly don't know her if you're on my list and not redirected from her site. Her name is Yuu, so yeh!

Hello Yuu!

Uhm.. Yeh. While I'm here, I'll post the link to lots of photos of my lil bro and me:

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/26741127/

NOW!

Let's make this a game. everytime you see a ***, it means I'm starting a new topic because my mind has wondered there and I cbf finishinh what I was saying before because it bores me. It's up to you to figure out if it's real, how I feel just now (as in will change very very soon like tomorrow morning), or purely bs.

( The list )
Well there's all that I can think of right now, I'll probably post more later because I'm in a weirdass mood.

On a COMPLETELY seperate note...

I want to deny how I feel, but it's bloody hard. I'm not looking for anything anymore, well I wasn;t anymore, then I saw her. And it was like the world when into bullet time and all I could see was her talking to her friend.

On a SEPERATE note again,

Post how many you think are R (real) C (only current) and B (bullshit) No need to post actual snippets, just a score. (You can quote ones if you want, there's just no need in the score)

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
The moment holidays started

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
The end of a four and a half (?) year relationship

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
On a bridge looking at fireworks in the reflection of alex's eyes.

5) Who were you with?
Alex.

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
Somewhere looking at fireworks.

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
I have my hopes.

8) Did you keep your new year's resolution for 2005?
Lol.

9) Do you have a new year's resolution for 2006?
Yes.

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
Not at all. Quite the opposite.

11) If yes, with whom?
--

12) If yes, do they know?
--

13) Are you still in love with them?
--

14) You regret it?
--

15) Did you break up with anyone in 2005?
"It was mutual"

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
Yes.

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
Don't have favs.

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
What a fucked up question.. um.. December?

19) Did you travel outside of your country in 2005?
China.. town?

20) How many different countries did you travel to in 2005?
--

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
No one died, if that's what the question is getting at.

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Of course.

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
Saw II (the only one still in my memory)

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
Summer Jam 03 (lol)

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
I don't buy albums unfortunately..

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
School ones.. probably 8 or 9 of which 1 I wasn't in.
Big.. 2.

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
They were all lame. I miss Blink.

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
Lol. Beach.

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
Not a drug person.

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
Sif declare this online. At least one.

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Lol.

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
I can't remember. Nothing that bad.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
Not on purpose if I did..

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
Of course.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
Too much.

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
When I went to the toilet standing up. Jkk. No idea, probably climbing mount everest?

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
I made myself forget. Maybe dancing with josh.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
I'd uh.. Cancel the war on Iraq. I don't wnt to get a car anymore because of petrol prices.

40) What are your plans for 2006?
Study. Eat. Sleep. Go to the toilet. Wake up. Love. (not in that order)

BI03 - Biology
GA 1: A+
GA 2: A+
GA 3: A+
Study Score: 42 (raw)

I fucked my Music up, not even gonna mention it here.

Now that the results are out, let's watch all the emo's go red.

Close to 30 hours wearing cat ears.

Jesus fucking Christ yesterday was fucking great.

Oh god I'm so tired.. I think that's why I'm swearing so fucking much..

Ok.. Starte dwith the usual glompings and hugs.. But this time with a fuckign awesome twist.. GIFTS!

Ok, from Manifestees I got:

Friezaeas - Rum Balls
Shi_Tenshi - Cookies
Matt Kadaj - Chocolate dick on a stick and tit candy
Erin - Jelly Beans
Shinomatrix - A Sasuke fridgemagnet thingy
Brad - An electric walking pig that oinks
Jedi Amara - A skater penguin
Wen - Huge Lollipop
Byron - Full Metal Alchemist Necklace
Clyde - Galactic circus Cred Card
Venessa - A box of Pocky
Mikki, Lia and Rory together - a starburst lollipop

I'm so fucked I can't remember anything else..

Oh man.. after some of the gifting.. I see these two absolutely two chicks sitting on the steps behind us and I was like "Holy fuck! Man that chick is hot! Do we know them?"

After some hesitation I move off to ask them with the assitance of Kyle and Hannah. TURNS OUT WE DO KNOW THEM! Oh FUCK YEAH! heheh.. *Target Locked* ;)

...As the day progressed, I think she hates me ^^ Ah well, I don't like giving up, wohoo~ With the help of Kim, I've decided everything and all that ^^ Fuck yeah!

heheh Get ready for some cheese.. When I was talkign to her, it feet like the whole world slowed down and it was just me and her ^^ Nothing else mattered, it was all just myself and her. I hope this works, I really do!!

Ok, so then we all went to the AGM and then we got diverted away.. At some random bit of grass myself, Teabag, that tall guy whose name I've forgotten and Kadaj started trying out martial arts moves like spins, flips and thrown on each other.. ^^ I have grass stains now because of that!

After all that we finally went off to Erin's place, after getting GOLD HELIUM BALLOONS!@! Oh god that night was great.. Ps2, GC, PSP, DS, Black Adder amongst many other movies and animes and AMVs.. So much fun just talking when we're not doing anything.. Around 3am most people had head off to bed, leaving myself, Clyde, Anna, Byron and Brad to sit around playing PSP and GC.

Clyde and I were going to go for a walk, but realised we would probably get lost, so we just sat in the backyard talking about shit.. Fuck man, that was some fucking profound shit..

The morning came as we heard the roosters crow, and the kookabaras laugh.. Later I realised how tired I was while watching Puni Puni Poemi.. I think I dozed off a few times.

We, of course took Sticker Photos and here's the latest Purikura Update..

For you little Bakaneru Fan girls and boys ^^

List ten songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your ten songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to:

1) Cool Joke - Undo
2) Dam Dariram
3) Cursive - The Recluse
4) The Cardinals - Carnival
5) m.c.A.T. - Bomb a Head
6) Mudvayne - A World so Cold
7) Smashing Pumpkins - Zero
8) Pink Floyd - Hey You
9) Three Days Grace - Wake Up
10) Thank You!! - *Bleach Ending*

I tag 5hi_tenshib0ofbaorin_leedarkyoshiiharrietwalkerlick_jreality2anime

Don't judge me on what I read it, and don't judge me from what you see of me when I'm with a group. Judge me not on what people say of me, nor of what I say. I only ask that you think of me exactly how you know of me. Spectemur Agendo.

I'm seventeen *sigh*

I like to think in the face of love, age is only a number. I don't think many others think so though,

I dunno.. I'll have a repost after this upcoming weekend though.

The scum of the earth is beautiful. The pious are dead. Why is the light so bright and burning? Why is the darkness so inviting..?

Why does the right amount of light always prove to be fake? Why must my faith always be shattered? Why do I trust anymore?

Humanity lies to us all. It's hypocritical. It preaches love and chastity, but it is a hateful whore.

Don't believe what they tell you, for it is a lie.

How can this ball of neural impulses generate so much? How does that same ball become human nature? how does it maintain instinct?

Sin is a dark, crimson.

Walk past, keep walking. Look forward to you destination. Take no note of those who are falling and have fallen around you. Think to yourself "If I help him, what if he pulls me down?" And think that and keep walking. Those who were your friends are sinking in the quicksand that is their own problems, and the swamp that has become of their ambitions. Keep walking.

Switch.

Someone you have loved and cherished for years is appearing in sight. You're stuck chest deep in a bog that wants your whole body. Scream to them, shout to them. Pray that they will help you out. Pray that god will help them hear you. They keep walking, closer and closer until they are almost an armslength away. Smell the perfume, see the indifferent eyes, feel the taste of their lips upon your forehead, feel the aura of warmth and security start to emcompass you but know that they aren't going to stop for you. They keep walking. Further away now, further and further away now. Until a feint silhouette is all you can see, against a setting sun.

No.

If you see me walking past, shout to me. Please. Shout to me. If I can help, I want to. I'l lcall up an army to get you out of this shit. There's never so deep a shit that I can't help you out of. If only you'd let me. If you ever doubt know this: I only do this for you because well... If I were in your place. I know you'd do the same for me.

Rawr.

Current Mood:

Rat in a cage.

My life is spiraling downward
I couldn’t get enough money
To go to the blood, blood romance
And suffocate me dry concert
It sucks cos they play some of my favorite songs
Like stab my heart because I love you
And rip apart my soul and, of course,
Stab your ribs. Stab. Stab.
And it doesn’t help that I couldn’t get
My hair to do that flippy thing again.
Like that guy from that band can do.
Some days…

I’m an emo kid
Nonconforming as can be
You’d be nonconforming too
If you looked just like me
I got paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I’m almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Cos I feel real deep when I’m dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression
Most just call me a fag
Cos our dudes look like chicks
And our chicks look like dykes
Cos emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat.
I must be EMO.
I don’t jump around when I go to shows.
I must be EMO.

I’m dark and sensitive with low self-esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister’s mascara now I’m grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can’t get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing.
Girls keep breaking up with me. It’s never any fun.
They say they already have a pussy; they don’t need another one.

Stop my breathing and slit my throat.

My life is just a black abyss
You know... It’s so dark and it’s suffocating me…
Grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip…
Tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans
Which look great on me by the way.

When I get depressed I cut my wrists in every direction.
Hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection.
I write in a live journal and wear think rimmed glasses.
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes.
I’m just a bad cheap imitation of Goth.
You can be catcher in the right and watch me jack off.
I wear skintight clothes while hating my life.
If I said I like girls, I’d only be half right.

My parents don’t get me you know.
They think I’m gay just cos they saw me kiss a guy.
Well maybe a couple guys…
But I mean… It’s the 2000s
Can’t 2 or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay?
I mean… chicks dig that kind of thing anyways.
I don't know, Diary. Sometimes I think you’re the only one that gets me.
You’re my best friend.

I don't know why wowy_kwuse went all psycho over me and rainsquall having a little fun.

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I need to do some more..

everybody has asked why I'm leaving the furry fandom but the answer is simple: Some of you know who you are and why I'm leaving FOREVAR.

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Well that one just made no sense.. but the first one.. jeebuz..

I am so going to kick nekopan out of the house. They got totally drunk the other day and puked all over clydev!

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Lots of names mentioned, so I'll include this one:
that bitch b0of gone and said that I got caught talking to grungy_hamster and backstabbing kitsunesakurano. If I get my hands on them I'm gonna kick some heads!

And also clydev told me that g07hic_sasuke told folks that they saw me dissing on rockeandroll. Yeah right! Don't let me hear about that again or they gonna be hurtin!

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Here's the randomest of all:

I feel like I'm so drained! I don't know why futaake went all psycho over me and sakura666 having a little fun.

And also yesterday at school my manager said to put in some overtime but like she's not going to pay for the overtime.

What sucks is that baorin_lee went around saying how I got caught backstabbing wowy_kwuse. If I get my hands on them they'll be sorry!

Hey and know what? that bitch kitsunesakurano gone and said that they saw me talking to 5hi_tenshi and dissing on harrietwalker. And yeah. You might guess I don't give a flying f*** what they think anymore. I'm over that.

Oh yeah. eviltom added another meme to their journal. GOD I HATE THAT!!!1!one!

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